Applying it

I have so many good things going on in my mind to write... but am having trouble writing them down. I have had trouble coming here all week. I really believe the Lord wants to use Your Highness to touch hearts, but more than anyone else... The Lord is using this to touch me right now. Oh my.
I believe that because of the love Jesus has for me, I should be inspired by His love and grace and share it with others... but I don't let it penetrate to the deepest places in my heart always. There is a stronghold I have to deal with in my walk with the Lord. It has hounded me for over 12 years... and I am at my wits end to know what to do with it... I am overweight. I feel like a Biggest Loser contestant... and I don't feel pretty .. accept when I think of myself as the Lord's princess...
I really like Beth Moore... and this Daniel bible study is gonna be so good. She parallels the Babylon that Daniel lived in to the attitudes of our western society... "It's all about me" and "Beauty is King" and "indulgent living"... which is so true of this culture... and I, unfortunately... we all do... buy into the culture more than we should. I will not blame culture for my problems totally... I know that I have made many indulgent choices that have led to my problem... so much so that I have been ashamed this week to look up into my Redeemer's face at times. Beth Moore said something in the daily study today that was just a spark to me though and we'll see where it leads... 1 Timothy 8 says: "⁸ For bodily exercise profits a little, but godliness is profitable for all things, having promise of the life that now is and of that which is to come." for me, I'm focusing there on the word exercise... and the verse before says to exercise godliness too... I think weight loss is a shear act of the will and I need to set up some exercises in godliness... mantras/scriptures/prayers to hone the will... more than physical excursion... :) Love you all... pray for me... Cath